Thursday, April 21, 2016


Last month, i was randomly doing online window shopping at Sephora Sg and saw that they have Zoeva blush palettes on their "new arrival" section! I was immediately hooked on because:

1) The price is so affordable!  
2) The colours look so great! 
3) The size of the palette is just nice! 

I've known of this German brand for a while but have yet to try anything from them. So i quickly added two blush palettes as well as some of their brushes into my shopping cart and i checked out. lol. Simple and fast. Window shopping becomes real shopping. lol. Girls. 

$28 per palette?! What?! So affordable!!!

I'm so sorry currently they are out of stock! Hopefully they will be back in stock soon. 

TEXTURE: This comes in a powdery form. It is definitely not the creamy kind. Hence, if you have super dry cheeks, it can create slight dry patches on your face. So it is advisable to put on moisturiser before you apply this blusher! Actually you should apply moisturiser before you put on any kinds of makeup. haha. 

PIGMENTATION: Very pigmented colours. You only need a slight amount of it which is awesome!

SMELL: The blusher is scentless. However the packaging itself (i.e. the palette) has a slight scent of plastic smell. 

PACKAGING: I love this sleek package. Very travel friendly. The outside is matte finished so it can get a little dirty if you don't take care of it. It also has a magnetic closure which i did not expect it. How awesome! The palette does not feel extremely light too which is a plus because then you know that the quality is there. 

This is the pink spectrum 

Pink spectrum is suitable for people with cool undertone, slightly to the fair skin side. I like to mix around with these colours to create a perfect blush colour for my cheek. haha. Currently, i have not touch the bright pink yet. The color is a little too intense for everyday wear. 

Colour goes in order from left down to right down (in palette), top to bottom (on my hand) respectively. 

This is the Coral Spectrum. Suitable for people with warmer skin tone.
Colours in order from top left to bottom and then top right to bottom (on palette), top to bottom (on hand) respectively. 

The top right hand colour on this palette reminds me of one of the blush colour from Lancome. They look so similar. 

ZOEVA spectrum palette states on this palette: 




If you know me, you should know that no fragrance stuff is a big bonus to me. I always gravitate towards fragrance free products. 

I honestly think they have delivered what it claimed. 

Overall, i'm really happy with these palettes! Very worthy buy. Good quality. Super pigmented, and no fragrance. haha. There is a also a nude spectrum blush palette which i did not purchase. You can click on to the hyperlink provided above to view the items. 

Hope you enjoy reading this post! See you guys soon again!


Saturday, April 16, 2016


Before you start thinking if i am clubbing too much, nope i am not but I WAS. I was walking passed my polytechnic today and a lot of memories flashed across, especially to the days where i was partying a lot.

Partying was fun and fantastic. U get to meet new friends every week, and you party like no one's business. U can jump and scream and drink and nobody will say no to you. (unless you are drinking too too much to the extend tt u might die)

If you look back at my old posts all the way back in 2012, i was a party freak. I didn't know how it happen and why it happen, it just happen. But i wasn't just partying, i was working too. I worked as a club promoter when i was 18. I didn't know what it was but when i did, i was already earning a lot of pocket money that it just kept me staying. On an average clubbing night, i could make $300 (in cash payment) from 10.30pm to 2am where guest list close for the promoters. 

I went to the club every single week for straight 3 months. Sometimes i go one night, other times i can go up to 3 nights a week (wednesday, friday and saturday). Can you imagine coming back home at 6am when people are actually going to wake up but you are going to sleep? 

During those days, i was having my internship too. So Wednesday was very hectic for me. I went to work at 8am, leave office at 6pm. Reached home at 8pm and prepared to go out at 10pm. Then i work/party until 3am. By the time i sleep, it was already 5am. And i had to wake up at 7.30am. So i took taxi to work (my internship is at CHANGI AIRPORT) almost every Thursday. 

What was weird was that i didn't feel extremely tired. I had this strange energy that kept me going. 

I'll be completely honest here: I drank too much and partied too much. After 5 months into this routine, i noticed a difference in my body. I can tell my skin wasn't as healthy as before. The worst part was that my hair, somehow, started to get really thin and flat? I was like "oh no. i think the alcohol and late night sleeps are doing no good." 

That was also when i quit my promoting job (btw i was studying full time in poly). Two months later, i wasn't partying anymore but i was still working in the night scene. I was a door girl. And this lasted for a good 7 months i think. Fortunately i don't get a weekly schedule. Because there were a lot of other door girls, i was only scheduled maybe twice or thrice a month. But for the first two months, i was working every damn party night because there was only me and another door girl. 

Then i was preparing to enter University in 2014. In February 2015, I OFFICIALLY BID FAREWELL TO THE NIGHT SCENE. I was 21 then. 3 years of night life. I was done with it. No more loud music ringing on my ear, no more stupid cigarette smell staining my body & hair, no more seeing of pukes when i go toilet, no more alcohol and no more having to sleep late. 

I was back on the 'normal' life once again, just like when i was 17. 

The consequence of clubbing too much is the damage done to the body. I took a long time to heal this body. My hair started to become healthy again. My skin felt less dull again. Girl i was back on track!!! Also, there was no more heavy makeup. haha. 

Although i earned quite a lot of pocket money those time, i wasn't looking back. That money can't buy me youth again ok!!! 

Ever since then, i have not been to a club. I haven't had a vodka cranberry juice or jagerbomb. The only alcohol i drink now (and only on special occasion) is wine. 

So guys, partying too much is no good ok. You ruin your health. Nevertheless, i think i've learned a lot from that 3 years. I met so many new people from different background. I learned about different lifestyles. I see the other side of the world- the party world. It is a lesson to learn and also learn not to neglect my health. I am not getting younger. I spent my precious golden period (age 18 to 20) consuming alcohol where i could be doing yoga and exercising. 

Right now, i'm so over the party scene. I can't even take loud music anymore haha. I have to sleep by 2am. And i am taking skin care very seriously too. 

Honestly, this post doesn't really have a meaning does it? lol. I'm just thinking about things to share and i thought maybe i can share about what i feel about partying and the consequences of partying too much. 

ok! that's it for now! Talk again soon! bye!  

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

My Acne Story | How To Cure Your Acne And Acne Scars (Part 2)

Ok! I think this is the last part on my Acne Story. There is only part 1 and part 2. haha. I'm pretty sure nobody really wants to know the story.

"Please just give me the solution to kill acne and cure acne scars already!!!"

Alright alright... If u want to know the story behind it, u can read part 1. In this post, i will jump straight into that magic weapon i had cured my acne. I will also share the products and things i did to cure my scars.

Before that, just to show the picture when i had acne and 4 months after acne:

All pictures (except first one) are taken without makeup, and in the same place: Sephora. 
Please be warn of unappealing picture. 

On 31st of October, i had my 3rd facial treatment which was also the last time i dealt with acne problem! Hooray!!!!

U can see that there are a lot of red/brownish/dull bumps and dots and scars and what not all over my lower cheek to my jawline. This picture was taken after the treatment where she put some cream to heal my wounds. Really horrendous. I lost my self-confidence and was under a really down & lost period. 

On mid December: my scars are disappearing. I never had new pimples popping out on that area again.
my left side

my right side

On end of March: my scars are almost invisible.

my left side
my right side


That weapon that i used was: 

I'm sure u haven't heard of this. When you google about "how to cure acne", there are hundreds of ways but almost little or none related to this device. 

This device looks like this: 

I'm linking the direct website to where i purchase this device: Please click here

This is JX-006A 

As i mentioned, my facial therapist was using this device on me. Out of curiosity, i went to check this thing out and realised i can buy it and use at home!!! Since my facial therapist can use this on me and say i will see result, then why not i just buy one for myself at home and do it myself? I was also utterly surprised that the high frequency was very affordable. It is selling at $50 on Q0010, where i purchased it. There is also a more expensive high frequency sold on Amazon where it can cost u $300. I chose this after reading tons of reviews about it on youtube, google and what not. 

Believe me, i spent more than 5 hours searching and reading about this. So i was quite certain that this device that i was purchasing is workable and authentic. 

You can read more about this on youtube when u search "high frequency device". I've watched almost all of those videos. 

What does this device do? 

When i first purchased it, the device looks very wrong to me. HAHA. u will understand what i'm talking about when you search about this device. To summarise, this device produces electrodes that is filled with neon gas. This helps to kill the bacteria and inflammation on your face. It increases your blood circulation and so can increase your collagen level and elasticity on skin.

There are also so many other benefits such as reducing wrinkles, fine lines, firming, reducing puffiness. I watch people do this on youtube. Some use it for firming and lifting and some for acne. 

For me, i use this mainly for my acnes and scars. YES, THIS REDUCES SCARS TOO! Now that my face is so much better. I use it only for spot treatment when i have one or two pimples popping out. 

This device produces high frequency current, which is electricity to be simple. SO U CANNOT DO IT WHEN YOUR FACE IS WET (unless u want to shock your precious face). Now, don't be scared to hear the word 'electricity'. I was initially quite skeptical about this because .... electrodes on my face? Will i die?? But since my facial therapist had done it on me, i felt more assured that nothing is gonna happen if i do it myself at home. 


With a DRY and CLEAN face, u insert the electrode glass tube into the device. Turn it on, adjust the strength level and glide it on your face. U can apply oil (any type of oil but of course must be organic, fragrance-free kind) for easier gliding too. So either dry or with oil it is fine. Just make sure it is NOT WET. 

Some websites will tell you to put your index finger on the tube when it is turned on (i.e. when u see the orange light) and then put it on your face, then u can move away ur finger. This is to prevent u from being shock. I followed this instruction the first few time of usage and after that i just glide it on my face without my finger touching the tube first. No difference for me. 

U should only do each area NOT MORE THAN 3 SECONDS. That means u need to keep moving your wand around your face. If u put it on the same spot for too long, ur skin will get damaged instead due to the high frequency current. 

I glided it on my face for around 10 minutes almost everyday for the first two months because i had visible scars. Then 2-3 times a week and now 1-2 times a month. 


U should disinfect the glass tube and put it back to the box. I put alcohol on a cotton pad and then clean the wand. Sometimes i wash with water and soup. THE TUBE HAS TO BE DRY before putting it back to the box. And i don't wash the silver metal part at the bottom of the wand. 

Then you carry on your skincare routine: Put toner and then moisturiser. 

And u are done! I've recommended this to few of my friends. I really hope they start seeing results too. I was really really glad that this thing works for me. I honestly did not have new pimple coming out from that area after using the high frequency device. 


When you turn on the device and you use a higher strength to zap your face, you will feel slightly electrocuted and you will feel the little pain. And u will smell something like a bad egg kind of smell. I experienced all this during the first high frequency treatment at the salon because my facial therapist turned on to the highest. lol. I think she really wants to cure my acne ASAP. If you feel slight electric shock, then just turn to lower strength. Your face should feel a bit "electric" for it to work effectively. The current can go in deeper into your skin. But when i first got my device, i turned to the lowest cause i was scared. Subsequently, i turned on higher and higher until i can feel an effect. U will hear the "ZZZZZZZZ" sound when it is on. 

Now whenever i have a small pimple popping out, i use this for spot treatment. Zap my pimple for a few seconds and i'm done. OH. I remember i took photos to compare before and after. Here it is: 

I discover a small bump that night. After showering (where i cleanse my face also), i use the high frequency. 

This is my face the next morning. 

WTH?! That bump was gone. I swear i did not edit the photos. And i swear this was taken the next day. These photos were taken two weeks ago. 

If i discover my new pimple within 5 hours and use this device, it usually can subside by the next day. However, if i used it only after a few days when my pimple is almost matured, it takes around 3 days. I do high frequency whenever i spot new pimples and i will snap on my snapchat. U can follow me to see how it works! Snapchat: babychooooo

I have not squeezed any pimple for 4 months now. I learn not to squeeze them (even though i always squeeze them before i had my acne disaster). 

So what are the other products that i use and things i do to heal my scar faster/ keep acne under control/ improve skin complexion? 

Besides using the high frequency, i bought Vitamin C serum 

I needed a Vitamin C serum because i read that it can help to lighten scars. So i purchased the SKINIC since it is made from Japan. haha. And i heard good reviews about it. However, this is only recommended to put before u sleep at night. It can dry out your skin. 

If u use this during the day, u need to put on sunscreen. Also, if you still have active acne, i think its not advisable to put this serum on. Let your troubled skin rest by applying basic products (toner and moisturiser) rather than putting on tons of other skincare product in hoping it would solve ur active acne problem. I have finished my 10ml bottle Vit C serum.

Honestly, i won't buy it again. Not because it didn't work. I think i can see a difference in helping my scars. I'm not re-buying anytime now because it it simply too expensive for a 10ml bottle!!!! $64 ok... not cheap... On the other hand, i'm really interested to try the Vitamin A serum and Hyaluronic Acid Serum. I think that is what my skin needs now. 

I changed my toner, cleanser and moisturiser and other skincare products to brands i trust: 

Mainly all Clinique. haha. Because they are fragrance-free which is always a bonus for me.  

A gel type of moisturizer is good for oil combination skin as it doesn't clog your pores. I've used this two years ago but changed brand and now i'm coming back to this.  

Before i use the liquid facial soap, i was using the Anti-Blemish Cleansing Foam from Clinique. Both work just fine for me! The best thing about it is that my skin doesn't feel tight and overly dry after cleansing. If your skin is feeling like it is deprived of moisture and feels very tight after cleansing, then it means ur cleanser is too strong for your skin. U need to stop using that now and switch to something mild!!! 

I need an exfoliator too. When you exfoliate your skin, dead cells are removed and new cells can regenerate! That lets your scar to heal faster because new cells are doing their work now to repair your skin! Sounds logic right? I use this like 1-3 times a week only for the first month and then i just do this once a week subsequently. I don't want to over exfoliate my skin. Works great too! This is supposed to be use before toner, after cleansing, on dry face. U need to shake the bottle first. 

My toner is also from Clinique hahaha. I purchased the ultra big bottle. Now i'm left with 1/4. Please note that the above toner is not the actual product i am using. I cannot find the exact picture of the current toner. My toner is the clarifying moisture lotion hydratante clarifiante 2 with a silver reflective cap. 
The above price is in USD. 

Sometimes when i see little new pimple forming, i will put this on for spot treatment. However, this does not work for me all the time. Out of 10 times, maybe only effective 3 times. Plus, u need to discover the pimple very early then it will work. If this does not work, i use my high frequency then apply this drying gel on my face overnight. DOUBLE EFFECT. 

I'm also using the Laneige water bank gel cream concurrently with my clinique moisturizer. I've just finished this last week. Again, gel type moisturizer is for me and for people with oily combination skin. 

I also use the Clinique Anti-Blemish Clay mask once in a while to clarify my skin.

Recently, i'm into face oil and to be honest i really am loving it so much! I think face oil can potentially replace all my gel creams. 

My recent face oil purchase and totally loving: 

The above price is in USD. 

i did a review on this u can read it here

Don't be scared that the oil is gonna make your face greasy and will clog your pores. In fact, it does the opposite. Because u apply oil on your face, ur face need not produce extra oil to keep the moisture. Thus, u won't get clogged pores and acne that easily since most of the time acne arises due to over production of oil. 

I read some reviews for some people that they hated this oil. I am loving it ok!!! U will also start to get use to the smell eventually. 

My current skincare routine includes the most basic steps: Cleanse, Tone and Moisturize. Sometimes i add in Exfoliator and then serum or just a serum or just an exfoliator. I am not doing that "full" skincare routine whereby u need to put essence, serum and mask too. I think a little goes a long way. LESS IS MORE. 

Beside buying so many skincare products, i also make sure i have enough sleep and drink plenty of water. This may sound a bit luxurious but i drink bird nest every now and then just to increase my collagen and heal my body. 

Sometimes i make my own collagen soup. The main ingredient in my soup is CHICKEN FEET. U can join my snapchat! I post a lot of cooking snaps and beauty snaps on it. I hope u can learn and take something from it. 

I also eat berries and drink fruit smoothie very frequently. I drink warm lemon water every morning. Lemon has vitamin C. Vitamin C is crucial to heal scars. I was obsessed with vitamin C stuff during the first 3 months of my healing process. I don't eat fried food so that is a plus for me.  

I DIY my own mask too. Oatmeal mask and honey mask are my favourite. 

U can tell that i am really very into beauty stuff. I will try almost anything that can make my skin glowy and nice. 

Currently, i'm drinking NONI juice as a supplement as well. This has great benefits for health and Miranda Kerr drinks this too! 

I also exercise once a week to get rid off the 'dirt' in my body through my sweat. 

That's it guys. I think i've shared everything with you. I hope u learn something from here. Use products that work for your skin. Know your skin type in order to know what kind of products will suit you. 

If your acne type is hormonal, i am not sure if the device will work because this is something inside your body. If your acne is infection kind, like mine, then i recommend you to try the high frequency!!! Please also keep a healthy lifestyle. A lot of people want good skin but forget about the proper diet that they should have. And please do not squeeze your pimple!!!! If ur pimple is really ripped and can come out just by a tiny pinch, remember to disinfect your hands first. 

I am really happy with my skin now. It looks radiant. I also have a natural blush on my cheeks. It becomes more visible after i use my argan oil.  Most importantly, i don't have huge pimples stuck on my face. I'm still getting small pimples here and there but it really doesn't bother me. I either use my Clinique anti-blemish clearing gel or high frequency or both together. 

I've also read about derma roll to reduce scars on face. Not only that but also increase collagen. I might buy that to try too. haha. Not sure. If u want to know just stay tune because i will do a review about it for sure if i buy. 

Ok! Thanks for reading! I know this is a long post and if you have read every single word in this post, it shows that you are really determined to cure your pimples and i am on your side for that! While doing this post, i also realise how much money i've spent trying to cure my pimples. sigh... But i think this is all worth it now! If you have any other questions, feel free to comment down below or send me an email at Good luck!

p/s: just for clarification sake, i am not sponsored or encouraged to say anything about the products mentioned above. Those are my personal opinion and experiences with the products. I trusted them and they work for me so i am here to share. 

Update on 16Jul2017:
After months of stopping my high frequency device, i feel like my pimples are coming back! I keep having pimple growing back at the same spot. This week, it seems like it is spreading. I know its time i need to do the high frequency diligently again. My face was almost clear when i stopped using the device. Just had my facial did and i requested the beautician to squeeze away all the pimples + dead blood. I'm gonna update you guys again after 3 months of diligent use of my device.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

MY ACNE STORY | Methods & Products That I Tried But Failed (part 1)

I think this post will be the most personal one i'll have for this year. I have been waiting for months to blog about this!!!! 

BEFORE YOU CONTINUE READING, I SHALL WARN YOU ON THE UGLY PHOTOS THAT WOULD BE SHOWN TO YOU SHORTLY (if u scroll down). They are the barest of me ever. I feel 'naked' showing the photos but for the sake of this post i should not be too bothered.  

This is real guys. I HAVE ACNE PROBLEM FOR ONE YEAR. In this post i will share my thoughts and things that i've tried to treat acne. 

I NEVER have a history of acne problem. I had almost perfect skin complexion since i was born. Once in a while i will have pimples here and there but they subside very quickly. They don't leave scars and i was really happy that i had no acne issues! I have oily T zone, some dry patches around my cheeks and near the sides of my mouth. My skin is sensitive. It gets red easily if you try to squeeze pimples/blackheads out. 

Towards the end of 2014, i had two huge pimples at the left side of my lower cheek (near my ear). Because i don't have acne problem before, i didn't do much about it. I left it there. I didn't squeeze them. Initially i wasn't paying too much attention on that two pimples until my friend noticed it and asked me why my pimples are so big and red. I told her they were there for two weeks already. 

Then I STARTED TO SQUEEZE MY PIMPLE that night. Yes, i squeeze my pimples. Because i never had acne issues before, i squeeze them! I get violent and squeeze them even harder if the head doesn't come out! I will squeeze them until that part of my face is red. Acting like a professional, i will try to poke a hole into the pimple to let the 'dirt' or 'clot blood' or 'pus' to come out. 

I managed to squeeze some yellow stuff out but the bump was still there. Again, i left them alone. 

Honestly, two red and big pimples weren't big deal but if they were there for TWO FREAKING MONTHS, then something weird has to be going on and i should start to panic. Right? 

So.... i start panicking.... I tried to squeeze them away every now and then. I think that was when the matter worsen. Sometimes i feel like my pimples are gone and other times i feel like they are still there. 

Slowly.... I GOT MORE AND MORE PIMPLES on my left side of my lower cheek. IT IS ALWAYS THE LOWER CHEEK AREA. And then.... some on the jawline. 

WHAT?!!!! I am getting more and more pimples and they are not subsiding by themselves!!! I can't squeeze them at all because they don't have heads!!!! I tried to squeeze them by force and nothing came out!!! 

One time, my mother acted like a pro and wanted to squeeze out one pimple for me. To be exact, i think that is not a pimple because it was a purplish red big dot with no bump. It was an area that was most likely clogged with dead blood. mother poked a hole and squeezed the 'pimple'. WOW SO MUCH BLOOD CAME OUT! They are the 'dead' blood. After squeezing, that area wasn't purplish red anymore. It went back to my natural skin colour. Then i thought 'wow..... i will poke a hole and squeeze again next time." 

So i started poking holes on my pimples. In case you don't know why i poke holes - that is because when there is a hole, dirt hidden from beneath my skin can come out. Sometimes your pimples have no heads so you can't squeeze anything out. By poking a hole, u create space for the dirt to come out. Sounds legit right??? Yeah! Sounds logical!!!!! 

HELL NO!!!!!! Although i think the concept is correct but THAT IS A TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE way to treat your pimples. 

I disinfected my needle before poking holes though. I managed to squeeze out the yellow stuff, liquid stuff and what not. AND THEN FEW DAYS LATER.............. 


I think 5 and more little bumps started forming on my face. (They are all around my lower left cheek). 

left side 

left side

I counted them. I think there were a total of at least 25. From a mere 2 to 25. 

And not sure since when the right side of my lower cheek starting having acne too. 

right side

right side 


Here is my description of my horrific acne. 

There are small bumps that never have heads popping out. It felt like big white heads. I also have the kind of pimples that are bigger in size and has a higher bump. I don't think they are pustules because they do not have pus. I can't see any yellow centre. I would say they are more like cysts but they are not painful if you don't touch them. I also have blood clogs (very visible on the first picture on top). So i guess there are several kinds of acne for me. Are those hormonal acne??? But i am 22! I should be passed that stage right??? 

What can i do? Below are my thoughts throughout the acne period:

Ok... let me change all my facial products! I bought Origin's Antioxidant Facial Cleanser $45 (read my review here)because they are expensive so they must work. I bought their clay mask $50 because i need to detox my face (Read this review here). I bought Biotherm's Life Plankton Essence $78 because i know koreans have good skin and they use serums. From a 3 steps skincare procedure (cleanse, tone, moisturise), i went to a 5 steps skincare routine (cleanse, tone, serum, moisturise and mask). 

But they are not working!!! i'm not seeing results! What is wrong? Maybe something is wrong with my body. I guess my body is signalling to me something. Ok let's go get the body check. So i paid $250 to have a basic body checked at SATA. On top of the acne reason, i did the check too because i had other health problems (my stomach was super bloated that time and i was having frequent eye muscle pain and headaches and i have heart palpitation). I think my indigestion problem is the cause of my acne. That is why i had bloated stomach which caused dirt and bacteria to accumulate which then lead to them "spreading" to my face. Again, i sound logical right? lol. 

Results came back and i was healthy. My nutrition level in my body is beyond good. So it has nothing to do with my diet. I was drinking 2litre water daily, drinking fruit smoothie, eating plain food. Nothing fried or too oily stuff. Btw my bloated stomach was cured by one thing. Read it here

Western doesn't work. I go Eastern. I went to visit a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic at Jurong. I have a feeling that it is something in my body that is causing all these trouble. Maybe it is part of my body that is not functioning well. The doctor took my pulse and said my upper body belongs to the "warm" 热体 section but my legs and hands belong to the "cold" section 寒体. Spent $100 for 8 days of medicine. DID NOTHING AT ALL. Technically she gave me medicine to cure my menses pain, saying that maybe it could be due to menses problem. 

I almost took an air plane to Hong Kong because there was one very famous TCM doctor near my HK house. Honestly, i didn't know why i was so into the TCM. I just kept thinking that my pimples do not simply pop out for no reason. If it is not the products that i am using, then it must be my inner body. I still think it is my bloated stomach's fault!!!! 

Then, my bloated stomach was cured but i was still growing new pimples frequently. So.... it is not my bloated stomach's fault. I didn't know what i was thinking. I was trying to make things link. 

Nothing seems to be working... I had plenty of sleep. (10 hours a day). My diet is very healthy. Oh! It must be the clarisonic! I've been using it for a while to clean my face better. The clarisonic brings out dirt underneath your face and you will have breakouts! Maybe i am having a breakout because of my clarisonic. Better be safe than sorry, I stopped using it (read this review here).

Did a lot of research: "how to cure acne?" "what products to use to cure acne?" "what kinds of acne are there?" Some went to the dermatologist but i was not intending to visit the dermatologist. Visiting a dermatologist will be my last resort. I do not want to be stuck with using their own products. I don't really believe that they would clearly know what type of acne i have. I have a feeling that they would tell me it is hormonal and would prescribe me birth-control pills. If i stop eating them, my skin could get worse. 

Since i don't know what was the reason for my breakout, i stopped using everything. I tried a 5 day CAVEMAN REGIME. I washed my face only with water and nothing else. I think i'm seeing result!!! On the 2nd day, my face didn't look as red. It went to a pale greyish kind of colour. On the 5th day, i decided it was not doing anything great. My second day was just an illusion. And that point of time, i had nothing on my mind except two words - "I'm fked." 

Nothing was working. My skin was horrible. I also had braces that time. Whenever i looked at myself from the side, i could visibly see all the red little dots and bumps. If i look straight, i or you wouldn't be able to see that i have acne problem. To be specific, the only affected areas were my lower cheeks and jawline. 

By looking infront only, my face looks like this: 
Totally clear! 

But look at the side, my face looks like this: 


 I just want to cry!!!! When will this end?! I've been struggling with them for more than 6 months. 

That night, i was crying again. I lost my self-confidence. My face looks like shit. I don't want to see anyone. The next day, under my boyfriend's encouragement, I went to the Beauty Salon that my mother visited to get my acne treated through facial treatments. 

I spent $650 for 5 sessions of facial treatment. The salesperson claimed that i would see result after 5 sessions. After the 2 treatment (3 weeks later), I DID NOT SEE ANY RESULT. I was desperate, lost and frustrated. What are you doing?!!! U squeeze all my pimples, use machine on my face but i can't see any improvements!!! I am still growing new pimples almost every day! If this speed of pimple production goes on, my whole cheek would get covered with disgusting red bumps and blood clogs very soon. I wanted to cry so badly when i visited them the 3rd time. I complained. 

On the 3rd visit, my original facial therapist was replaced by another staff (whom i also had facial done with her before) because she was on leave. This current staff, JJ, heard my condition and said she will try something different. She squeezed my pimples SUPER hard. I felt my skin was about to collapse or would have scars due to the force. I was super worried if she was doing it correctly. After all that squeezing, she took out a device and started zapping my face....... 



"wait did i hear correctly? ur pimples subsided? ur pimples recovered? no more pimples?" YES u heard it correctly! My pimples literally STOP growing. I was officially in the healing stage. If you never had acne problem before, u will never know that kind of joy. It is inexplicable. 

After 4 months of healing.... 

Currently, my face looks like this: 

right side

left side 

Now you have know all the methods and products that i've tried using. If you are thinking of using any of the above ways to treat ur pimple then chances of success are slim. 

Wrapping up this post: 

DO NOT SQUEEZE pimples YOURSELF because you are not the professional. 
Going to the TCM thinking that it would treat your acne DOES NOT WORK. 
If you are eating healthy and you are still having acne then diet is not the cause. 
Going to the dermatologist is my last resort 
A lot of facial cleanser that claim to treat acne is NOT TRUE. 
I spent a lot of money curing my stupid acne. sigh.

Lastly, i believe that the cause of my acne problem is due to inflammation/bacteria infection. Had i not squeeze the pimples myself, maybe it (the bacteria) wouldn't spread out. If there are any suggestions for other causes, please tell me. I would like to know! 

On the second post, i will reveal THAT MAGIC DEVICE that was used on my skin along with the current products that i'm using to keep control of possible breakouts. And also wrap up my whole acne experience. 

P/S: Although my acne situation is not the worst comparing with other people who had worse cases, i  still fully understand the state of despair and the hopeless feeling when you've tried all sorts of ways but still doesn't work. Don't give up. There will be a way that you will come across one day and will treat your acne successfully.  

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

What i ate | March 2016

I love cooking. I love to make food and decorate the food presentation! This passion is inside me since young. So why not i collate food that i eat every month and post on my blog? Most are home cooked food. I spent a lot of money at NTUC shopping for groceries every week! haha. I'm literally an aunty when it comes to groceries shopping. Hopefully u can find some inspiration from my humble cookings :) . 

That day i really didn't know what to cook. So i added in all my remaining ingredients: Mushrooms, carrots & cucumber. Surprisingly it was really good! The only thing to comment is that i should soak the carrots with some sugar water to get rid of that "carrot" smell. 

Again, i'm using the leftover food. Had some leftover beans and frozen prawn. Let's do some pasta tonight for dinner! Topped with parmesan cheese. 

Breakfast is becoming more and more important to me now. I started my berries breakfast every morning (almost). 

Cooked my brunch. Banana pancake with lots of berries!!! This recipe is super easy. It took me only 10 minutes to mix everything up and start cooking. For the juice, i made myself raw almond milk (homemade) with banana, avocado and some cocoa powder. Super delicious! 

Since i had a leftover piece of japanese curry stock, i decided to cook japanese curry that night. That big piece of thing is chicken thigh. I did not chop it up because i was lazy. 

another morning with Avocado juice. 

Had japanese for dinner. Tsar-koshi udon at Jurong. Surprisingly it was really quite good! 

Carrots and a failed pan-fried egg because i used a wrong pan to cook it. Chicken wing marinated with soya sauce, some sugar and sesame oil. I ran out of oyster sauce if not i could make the marinating step MUCH easier. 

Had pancake again! This time without the banana because i ran out of bananas. haha. 

Made mashed potatoes. It was a 10minutes work. So fun to cook! 

Chicken thigh, mashed potatoes and rice. That with lemon juice is just AWESOME. 

My cute breakfast. I wanted to make hello kitty but i have a find a white sauce. Will do that next time. :) 

Another breakfast with lots of berries!!! They are great in antioxidants. I'm a beauty junkie so anything good for skin and body, I TAKE. 

That's all for now! I'll try to take as many meals as possible but some are really very simple meals. U can view them on my snapchat instead. My snapchat is babychooooo. 

Cooking is not a chore. 
Washing dishes is the chore. HAHA. 

goodnights lovely people! 

Saturday, April 2, 2016

THE END OF BRACES AFTER 1 YEAR 3 MONTHS | Alfred Cheng Orthodontic Clinic

Hello everybody! Happy April's Fool! But I'm not kidding today, I HAD MY BRACES OFF TWO DAYS AGO!!!!! *DRUMROLLS + CLAPS + CHEERS*

When i went for my monthly treatment on Tuesday, i was intending to do the treatment for one more month because i thought the back of my teeth are not fully closed yet. So when i reached Alfred Cheng's Clinic, Dr Wee checked my teeth and told me

"Actually all your teeth gaps are closed already." 
I replied "So you mean i can take off my braces now?" 
He said "Yes u can already." 
I asked, "HUH TODAY? Or when i get the retainer?" 
He said, "Today" 

I swear guys... i was SUPER EXCITED at that moment. I kept smiling and giggling LOL. So he took off the ceramic from my teeth, polished them and DA TAH!!!! BRACES ARE OFFICIALLY REMOVED!!!!!

I had no idea i would be removing my braces that day. I will say again... I AM SUPER HAPPY! OVERJOYED!

I took a few breaths, waited for awhile and went to the toilet to check out my new teeth. *open my mouth & look into the mirror* "OMG! THEY ARE SO STRAIGHT!!!!! I DIDN'T KNOW MY TEETH CAN BE SO STRAIGHT! WOW!"

I can finally smile and laugh confidently. Before braces, i couldn't smile that confidently because of the weird angles of my front tooth. During braces, i didn't smile (tried to prevent from laughing and smiling) because i didn't want to show my braces-teeth. After braces, yeap, I CAN SMILE! I CAN LAUGH! HOORAY! ITS AWESOME!

In case u didn't read about my previous posts on my braces journey, i will do a sum up here:

Before my braces, i have rather un-neat teeth but from far it actually looks ok. haha. But close up is horrible

My first treatment: 

A typical scene at Dr Wee's room. 

Fast forward 15 months ( 1 year 3 months)


Had my retainer on in this picture so it looks a little blurry. 


From a far it looks like this: 

A quick background on my teeth: 

I had two baby canines on the top which did not drop out. Before braces, those two were extracted. Thus, u can see (from the first picture) that my top canines look much smaller than the rest of the teeth. This makes my teeth look 'unbalance'. 

I only HAD MY TOP SET OF TEETH GET TREATED WITH BRACES. I had my bottom set of teeth completely free from braces. Yes half braces can be done. For further info on the price, u can check the rest of the parts on my braces journey linked under 'Labels'. 

So when u view my pictures, u should only focus on the top part as those are the ones who were treated. Of course, if you look at the overall (top and bottom) they are PERFECTLY aligned. Because my bottom set were not treated. Maybe i will get them treated a few years later, that's another story. My teeth are quite complicated, as explained previously before. 

So guys! I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH BRACES! During those times when i had braces on, i kept asking myself if that was a wrong decision but now for all those reasons that i gave myself to regret, i am 'deleting' them all away. BRACES IS JUST AWESOME. You suffer for around 2 years and u get a LIFE TIME of beautiful smile. 

But there is a price to pay. Other than wearing braces & looking ugly for the time being, U NEED TO WEAR RETAINER FOREVER. 

Has anyone mentioned this to you before???? Yes u need to wear retainer EVERY NIGHT before u sleep,  F O R E V E R. If u stop wearing retainer, your teeth will start to move around & be messy again. 

So before wearing braces, u should consider about this lifetime commitment. I have read a ton of braces treatment journey and surprisingly no one ever mention about this. 

So here is my 15 months of dedication to go for treatment every month. Worth it. Paid off. 

Lastly, i just wanna quickly share about little trick to expedite your braces process. 

In a calendar month, sometimes u get to go for treatment TWICE a month instead of once a month. U can go back for treatment after 21 days, that is 3 weeks. So instead of waiting extra one week for the month to end, i go back exactly after 21 days. The tightness for me usually wears off after 7 days. 

So just go for your treatment EVERY 21 DAYS and your braces will be finished faster! 

About the colour of the bands... some people love to choose different colour every month. For me, i choose pink, EVERY SINGLE TIME (only had blue for once). I don't need to choose what color to wear next treatment, Dr Wee knows i am going to choose Pink HAHA. 

Pink is the best to cover up stain. I only wore pink so that's all i can say about it. No fancy schmancy color for me. I'm not into that. 

Alright, i think i am done with this last final post about my braces. I will miss you. Good bye my braces chapter. I am ready to start a new one. 

P/S: Must start learning to smile showing my teeth when taking picture now. I had master the art of not showing teeth when smiling throughout this 15 months. That is why you don't see my teeth on my instagram pictures. Almost forgotten how to smile brightly ... but now i am back. yeah!